January 2012
90 posts
thoughts on each new years eve.
each new years eve i feel this wave of terror at the realization of how long its been since whenever. like for example, 2002 was a really fun year for me. its been 10 years since then. or if you want to go down the snl route, SIX YEARS AGO is when i did the fansite for bill. and it will be 7 whole years since my fathers death. it will be 5 years since all that manic stuff, and when that was going...
December 2011
58 posts
my biggest goal for 2012 is my portfolio.
its all i seem to talk about i know, but if you knew me a few years ago you’d probably have a better understanding.
and it took some really hard and emotional work to get to where i am right now. and im so close, i know it.
winning the two awards i won this year were so incredible because they were both done with such careful and passionate work. honestly, i believe anyone can be a...
writers block.
im having a huge form of writers block, especially in themes. so i started shopping around for lyrics and i think i may have found one that really sums up something i did a while ago.
gotta save up some money to get my songs produced.
the other night.
i wouldnt say i had a BAD night at work on Monday. but it was emotionally difficult. im kind of on edge with a few people at work. and its nothing personal with them, its really me. i was choking up while trying to talk to the coworker who was clocking out with me. but i am so sick of having to explain myself to people. nothing ever changes. i just want people to geniunely understand the way...
DIZZY SPELLS. © by kelly mcaulley How can you trust me And how can I prove it When I cant keep control Watch me lose it Its completely frustrating Im completely intimidating This whole entire thing Just flat out overwhelming So here I am Totally out of words It hurts, It burns But no matter how many times No lessons are learned They’re all prepared Ive got the police, on the edge of...
"Last Christmas" is my favorite christmas song,...
but that song is all wrong for her to cover because it just sounds like the same theme she does for her regular mainstream songs. like the other christmas song she has is called “Christmases when you were mine” its always that “mine” theme with her and when her heart was broken by some guy.
Christmas.
I had to work this whole weekend. Yes, christmas eve and christmas day. Luckily the night shift, so it wasnt that bad. But oh my god, everyone is all “Think of the money, think of the money” the money turned out to be shit because i got cut from my last couple of hours, and all i could think about was how much i miss being in a real neighborhood and house for christmas with all my...
if i made a list of everything thats happened this...
and paired it up to a list of where i was a few years ago.
i mean jesus christ. i never pictured anything even happening like everything i got to do this year. honestly, where i was three years ago i thought id be dead …….
met & photographed justin timberlake
inches close to lady gaga and watched her spin records at the after party
got to see kattan on fallon live in the studio...
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raraiskablamo asked: I think I saw you in standby, but I wasn't sure and I didn't want to look like a fool!
(rant) - "guys vs. girls"
I dont consider myself an unattractive person. Im not going to sit here and bullshit you into some self-loathing blog post about how ugly I am, or how awkward I am, or how antisocial i am. Quite the contrary, I consider myself 50/50. For the most part I am a pretty fun and positive person, but I do have my moments like any human being. I do consider myself ugly when I choose to be ugly (physically...
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i have two weeks of a pretty intense work...
Got to go to the Snl after party
First bathroom. Then drinks. Then dance floor. We saw taran dancing and I couldn’t stop laughing because they had on beyonce and shakira and all I could picture was his Robyn video from last week.
So then we took a walk to see some old friends, most of the cast eats dinner at this point at fancy tables.
Bobby and I were gushing over our inner Snl nerds and fandom at the after party....
My childhood dream came true today. Finally old...
best night.
The funny thing about Jason playing Jesus
is that he plays the devil on update
Jimmy Fallon and a page personally brought out...
and she handed it out while he met everybody
I love when people publicly tweet celebrities for...
As if.
Some guy leaped out at me to try to scare me like...
I actually did get scared and raised my hand to him to attempt to hit him.
Why? Because guys listen, I know you think it’s all funny scaring girls for laughs but to us girls you look like you’re about to attack us. I mean what do you think? A girl walking at night and a guy just leaps out at her from the side with open arms??
Yeah.
I stopped myself, but I did express my anger...
lyrics in the works .. feedback appreciated.
PAPER THIN WALLS
© by Kelly Mcaulley
there’s a common misconception
and it wasn’t my intention
to hurt you
got to get it out
need to let it out (somehow)
it goes back and forth
it works both ways
seems the tension keeps growing
going and going
on and on these days
these walls keep speaking
it’s so intriguing (to listen)
but only keywords, I hear
guess...
possible non-profit single
im researching ways to get those awesome people who can remix/mash-up songs from popular artists from scratch (instead of ripping the instrumentals) and getting in talks for them to help me make a modern cover/remix of my dads favorite song just for fun.
and im trying to get the copy of the radio broadcast from this big station who did a tribute to my dad during his funeral and played the song....
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Patrick Stump ft Lupe Fiasco - “This...
cant wait to decorate.
gah. i just have all these goodies to put in my room. especially since i trotted through the lower east side on Friday night and saw all these shops i never paid attention to before. i need to ship my paint cans to my apartment and i want to buy these mock posters of those “Keep Calm” phrases to put in the frames of the walls.
i think i may have found a new job that pays better. a...
VHS or BETA - “Bring on the...
writing two new songs.
they’re called “Paper Thin Walls” and “Let It Build”. but i think my first recording is going to be a song my brother wrote. im still in the writing/composing stage for my own stuff. i really want “Micro-Burst (dont worry about it)” to be a single.
these past few weeks have been a little ridiculous, emotionally. so i started writing two new songs. but i...
work. scanning tickets.
Me: Hi! Tickets please!
(Person hands me a metrocard / LIRR ticket)
Me: O_o
……
really??
they asked me to switch to manning the elevators...
after an hour an a half i got such motion sickness so i asked to go back to my previous position.
i hate elevators.
knals asked: You win (regarding Stefon).
Anonymous asked: Don't give up! You've got so much ahead of you. Don't quit now!
im just done. i am so done. its just not fair and im not happy with anything. so much has errupted the past few weeks and i cant deal with myself anymore. its just impossible to get anyone to really listen to me, to understand me, to legitimately be there for me. i wish people would just REALLY look deep into my life and understand what it is i have been through and what it is im STILL going...
oddlyspecific replied to your post: stefon.
my thoughts were the opposite….since he was in the promos, he won’t be on the show tomorrow? idk, just my thoughts
hm i wonder what he was on for. i think thats the first time ive seen a character appear in a promo
old people really get on my nerves, a lot.
so here i am about an hour ago. standing at the 50th street entrance of NBC up against the wall within arms reach of the handicapped button. this little oldish lady starts waddling up to it with all of this luggage (probably about 4 items) trailing behind her. so i LEAN OVER (like i said … arms reach) and hit it for her and smiled.
she stops and looks me dead in the face and says “why...
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stefon.
i feel like since they did Stefon in the promos this week with Katy Perry, they might do him tomorrow night which kinda sucks because he would be PERFECT to save for NEXT week with Jimmy Fallon hosting because they could TOTALLY revive a Jeffrey’s sketch with Stefon as the other half of Jimmy’s character. It would be cool to see him in a sketch again which is where he started in 2008...
wtf.
i just wrote a deep meaningful post and it never posted.
whatevs.
midnight show at the movies with a bunch of friends tonight :)
the people who live on the floor beneath my...
Every night when I get undressed for bed, change of all quanities falls out of my pocket and hits the hardwood floor. Every night.
Yesterday my phone fell off my bed. Hit the hardwood floor.
This morning my christmas lights unraveled from my couch frame as I was sleeping. And fell to the hardwood floor.
Then I tried to get up out of bed and nearly fell off causing the legs of my couch to rise...
new videos.
i added some new videos to the “films” section of my portfolio. the old demos i made in 2008. i have a couple of new projects lined up for January. pretty excited :)
http://kekenicholas.carbonmade.com
Fun fact:
lizdexia:
I don’t wear earrings. I used to have pierced ears as a child and when I was 13 or 14 I forgot to wear earrings all the time and they closed up. I don’t really think I’m missing much but sometimes I see really cute earrings and it makes me sad.
me too! i got them pierced when i was 4 and later got an infection and my aunt had to cut them out. and they closed up since then. last year...
follow up.
im also gonna say that i don’t like new residents or semi-new residents who have moved here from elsewhere and think they know the ins and outs of nyc. they start raving about the common hotspots or super popular buildings and complain the minute they start seeing the ugly side which ill tell you is not even the true ugly side (like tourists).
you really wanna see ugly, take a walk along...
future plans.
i really want to ditch new york like this time next year and start something new in California. but every time i mention that, people try to talk me out of it.
GTFO. I’ve lived in new york my ENTIRE life. so much so that my dad was born in raised in new york city, HIS parents are from new york city, and my moms parents are from new york city. my home is like your home. I’ve seen it...